Friday, June 09, 2006

My baby is going to pre-school!

I have no idea why I am so sad. . .I guess it’s that I have to acknowledge that my baby is growing up. She just seems so much younger than her sister did at this age!

Do you know what I am talking about? That feeling that your baby is no longer a baby. The knowing that she will go to school and communicate feelings, and make new friends and have her feelings hurt on the playground, and become a kid! When does it happen? Where does the time go? I know that there were some long nights mixed up in there but man, I can remember so clearly the night she arrived and how it felt and I can’t believe that I won’t feel that again. I think I am just being overly sentimental, I know that I am tired.

I guess I just needed to get those feelings out, hopefully I can pull myself together by Monday morning, if I don’t’ the teachers will know for sure that I am insane!

Monday, June 05, 2006

working mom?

So much for posting articles that somebody else wrote. I will continue to post those but I also have decided that documenting the life of a real life working mom is what this will be. Really, what I would like is for those moms (and dads) out there who work, to know that they are not alone. I have felt like I am the only person on the planet who feels the way that I do, but the more I talk (and I do that well) the more I realize that working moms (and stay at home working moms) are all extremely similar, we want the best for our kids and we also want to feel sane and appreciated at the same time, I don't think we are asking for the moon.

Okay, my 2 year old won't sleep. I shouldn't say won't sleep I should just say that staying asleep is the problem, consequently it is for me too! I really have no idea what the problem is. . .I honestly had no idea how sleep deprived a person could get until I had children. Not in college or in my wildest dreams did I ever think that I would sleep as little as I do. Even when the child sleeps I don't sleep because I have to "check in" (ie make sure everybody is breathing, nobody is uncovered and getting cold, and of course reassuring myself that nobody has had an allergic reaction to a new food that we may have had for dinner and may be going into anaphalactic shock) The things that go through your head at 2:34 am!

Anyway, I am a mom, I love my children dearly and I guess if the price I pay for them is getting 5-6 hours of sleep a night so be it, I would happily pay it all over again!